A Little Bit of a Vent

So I've been absent again for the past couple weeks. I've been in a super frustrated mood. And it's all because I threw my back out. How did I do this you ask? By doing nothing! That's the worst part of it all. I wish I had some kind of cool story to tell of how I injured myself, but all I have is, I got out of bed and wanted to cry and collapse. Yeah not as interesting.

Anyway because of this stupid injury it has put me in a bad mood and angered me. I can't do the things I want to do (like vacuum), and the things I can do, I'm limited on how to do them. I can barely walk around a store without having to take a break. I feel so helpless!

Needless to say I have been working very hard to nurse my poor back, back to health, but it's been slow, and I'm an impatient girl. Tomorrow I'm going to the chiropractor to see if I can get myself adjusted (in hopefully more ways than one) and not feel crooked and in pain anymore. My awesome brother who I can't even explain how proud I am of him, has been so kind as to provide me the help he can in his massage therapy ways. I'm just hoping by this weekend, I can be back to myself so that I can go enjoy me some fun at Pride. Otherwise I will be laid up on the couch yet again. ugh!

I hope you enjoyed my venting! Luvs to all.

2000 and Beyond!

I would just like to give a shout out to my 2000th viewer/reader whoever you are. Thank you to all of my readers, I hope that I really do entertain you all. Now on to 3000!!

Singleness

I went and visited my grandma on Mother's Day this past Sunday. And as usual she asked how I was doing, to which she got a "good, good" from me, and I got a smile from her. She then asked if I have a boyfriend, and I said "no", and in return I got a sour/sad face with a slight "ooh". I'm not quite sure how I should have reacted, but I feel I handled it like a boss by just smiling.

With me being at the age I am and unmarried, I get the question a lot when I run into long lost friends/neighbors/co-workers, etc. And I get a lot of different reactions, but mostly I get the response "well that's ok". Yep, I know it's ok and here's why:

I've embraced my singleness.

Do I get lonely sometimes? Yes. Do I wish I had someone to snuggle with that isn't covered in fur? Yes. But I have ways to compensate until the right guy comes along.

I feel at the age I am I have the right to be a little picky on who I want to eventually spend my life with. Just because most of the guys I come across are divorced with children (no kids for me), or have never seen a real woman, doesn't mean I have to settle. I know that there is the right one out there, and I can be patient. And if he happens to be divorced with children, then so be it. Although he better be damn near perfect in all other ways.

I'm not single for lack of trying either. I've tried several different dating websites with either no luck or horrible results. I've tried the blind dating scene with about the same results. And with my non-religious and non-bar-going (well from time to time) status, it makes it that much harder. Which in turns makes me a little discouraged, until I remind myself how awesome I am and that most guys are just too dense to realize this.

But seriously, just because I live in a state where the average age to marry is 19, doesn't mean that I'm an old hag who will never experience love. It just means that I'm well seasoned, and more prepared for real life. And there's nothing wrong with that.

So no fear grandma, I will one day find my prince charming, it's just taking longer than my siblings, friends, cousins, co-workers, oh hell the rest of the world, but one day he will come.

And to all a good day!


P.S. Below is a link to a fun article/blog post from hellogiggles.com on this very subject. Enjoy!

http://hellogiggles.com/dont-ask-me-why-im-single

Mars

There's this psychic that appears on the radio station I listen to in the mornings, and she has been discussing the planet Mars and how it has been in retrograde. She had also said that the retrograde would end in May.

Now you may ask, why is this important? Well as she explained it, while Mars was in retrograde people felt apathetic to social activity and completing necessary tasks. But now that it's over people are wanting to re-engage in their activities and completions.

This may sound like a bunch of hullabaloo to some, but to me it explained so much. Much of this year I have felt apathetic. I didn't want to do much of anything and honestly thought I might be depressed. Then May came and everything changed. I've been wanting to be social, rekindle old relationships, make new ones, and just get things done.

I had no idea why all of a sudden I felt this surge of energy and necessity to move forward until I heard this psychic explain this. I'm so glad I heard about this because I really do believe that it's why I was feeling the way I was.

I've always been one to accept change as it comes, and to be able to handle it just fine, but I wasn't. I was acting crazy and irrational at times and I myself didn't even understand why. I really didn't want to do anything. But this month which has seen the beginning of what's to hopefully come a lot of change, I'm ready and excited to welcome it with open arms.

I felt the need to share this insight with anyone else that was possibly feeling this same way. And I hope this has offered up a little help for you as it did for me.

I finally feel like myself again and it's fantastic!

TSAS

With season finale's beginning for the current TV season, it's hard not to feel a little lost on what to do while our shows are on hiatus for the summer. Luckily some networks have caught on to this and have created summer programming. This has helped me get through the lull of when I'm not out enjoying the sun or working. Let's just say my DVR is in constant recording mode year round. I know it's a sickness, but one I enjoy.

Well this current season not have I only had to prepare for season finale's, but also series finale's of a few favorite shows, and I don't like it. Earlier this year I said goodbye to an all-time favorite, Chuck (I really don't understand why these networks decide that they need to cancel smart shows, but they do). And soon I will have to say goodbye to House, Eureka and Desperate Housewives. I'm torn on how to feel about House, seeing as how I've mentioned before (here) my mixed feelings. I'm still finding myself crying at the end of each episode and I know I'm going to want more, even though I know the show has run its course (damn you first world dilemmas!). As for Eureka, even though I only started watching the show the first of this year, it has fast become a favorite, and to find out that it's too coming to an end saddens me greatly. I can't explain how much this show is the ultimate geek show. I'm not as heartbroken about Desperate Housewives. I've mainly watched it because I always have. It's a guilty pleasure that's lost its luster, but alas another show I'm losing.

And in knowing that I'm losing these shows, I thought that I would take some time to discuss what I call TSAS (TV Show Abandonment Syndrome). This syndrome occurs when you're way too emotionally invested in a TV show that's future has been severed. TSAS has many symptoms like; uncontrollable crying, depression, the need to watch past episodes over and over, and the need to fill a void. These symptoms will pass over time and typically diminish when you have found a replacement TV show. There are some residual symptoms though that can last years depending on how emotionally invested you truly were in the show. These residual symptoms are the ones that should be addressed. The best way to keep these at bay are by watching the series repeats. This way you get your fix, but you are also coming to terms with knowing that there will be no new episodes, and you will eventually accept this and be able to move on.

This has been so, for me, with the show Friends. 10 years of my life were spent watching this show, planning for a new episode every week by scheduling my social calendar around the day and time slot for the show. 10 years I spent doing this, and when the show came to an end, TSAS kicked in. It took years for me to curb my symptoms, but I am better now. I can go months without needing to watch an episode now. Although, I do from time to time need to fall back on Friends and other favorites to help my TSAS stay at bay. I similarly had this same issue when Smallville ended last year. I ended up watching the entire series from beginning to end to help my TSAS, and it did.

I can feel my TSAS is on the verge of rearing its ugly head again. And I've got to figure out a way to deal with it, because this particular season has been a lot harder with the fact that I have more than one show that is going away for good. And let's not even start on the surprise cancellations that usually happen between now and the Fall (for which I refer to the .gif below as provided by the awesome Wil Wheaton).

So I'm asking all my readers out there to help me discover some new shows to help me avoid a major TSAS inflammation. And in return I will continue to help anyone else that suffers from this affliction, by writing about the great shows I watch that you may not be watching. 

Awesome In Every Sense

The moment I saw this it made me grin like a lunatic. I can't explain how much I love this mash-up of two of my most favorite things. I love fan art!